Mixed Feelings....!!!!!!!!!
How does it feel when you see
empty desks.. when you don’t see your friends, peers, loved ones where they
were a week ago... did you feel the same ...???
I didn’t, but I saw empty desks,
empty cubicles, empty systems... and empty seats.... If you think I’m being
ironical you are wrong. Who doesn’t wanna grow big in a company whose strength
is more dan a lakh.. but not at the cost of someone who is close to your heart.
Well i will start from the
beginning... It was the month of june and i got allocated to a project where my
task was to learn a new tool i was totally unaware of. Difficulties did come
but as it goes for an engineer, we as engineers are capable of doing anything
and everything. I with the help of my seniors and mentors learnt what i was
destined to do and started working on it. On the other hand as a fresher i
always heard that we were destined to take pressure but trust me i never felt
so in my team. Whenever pressure came in the whole team jumped in and delivered
the good out of it. Where on one hand my friends felt the pressure of working
in their team i enjoyed the same. The credit goes to the team mates i had.
Getting out of office at 11 pm.. 12 pm seemed fun rather than boring, the only
reason being everyone stayed till everyone left.
It was 80 when i entered, den it
increased to around 120 in the 2nd year... new faces came in, my
project got changed everything happened for good. From development i was
shifted to ticketing. Ticketing might seem to be boring for most of you but for
me it turned out to be fun. I enjoyed ticketing. Reason being the cool team
mates i had and the help i got from others. A time came when we wanted tickets
to fall in our bin so that we could have some difficulty solving them.. but
sadly that didn’t happen coz everything looked easy.
3rd year came and
suddenly the sun that was shining so bright loosed its power. Cubicles, systems
and chairs started to get vacant. It was like a nightmare to see my team mates
getting released. The team i was so proud of was no more there.. the persons with whom i spent the last 2.5
years enjoyin, laughing and smiling were no more around me. The persons who
used to smile in my happiness, lend their shoulders when i used to be sad,
partied wid me when i felt lonely, one by one were no more there to scold me if
i was wrong and applaud when i delivered good.
The team which i saw grow from 80
to 120 was cut short to a 40 mere people.
3-4 were still there but the fun we used to do earlier was extinct. The
leg pulling for no reason, the treats for no reason, the request for help or
rather i’d say the ‘ei eta ektuu dekhe de
nah’ or ‘ekta loan a ektu dhok nah’ or ’aaj first half a bin khali
korbo’ or ‘chol aaj kfc te jai’ or ‘chol aaj bowling jai raat a’ was missing.
As this is my first project i’m very
much attached to it... be it seniors, batch mates, or juniors. Might be i
didn’t like 1-2 but the others made it up for them. People say, office life is
boring but i personally loved staying late in office working with a group who
knew what work is and what fun is.
Today, when i see empty seats a
mixed feeling enters my heart. I feel sad that they are no more around me on
the other hand i feel happy that they are excelling in their life and career.
Many complain but i feel proud to have worked with them or under them.
I have enjoyed every moment of my
life out in this project but now the emptiness haunts me sometime coz the
smiling faces of whom i loved to watch everyday was less now. I know that someday i’ll also have to leave this place but wherever i go i’ll miss this
place and trust me i’ll miss my team and project a lot. I might be doin a lot
of masti when i go out of here but i’ll always miss the ‘masti’ out here that we did together and the never
breakable bond we share.
If you all think i’m being
nostalgic... m not... but kabhi kabhi awi hota hai... kabhi toh lagta hai
kya... insaan hi hai at the end.
I’d love to end wid a dialog from
an ad: ‘Fevicol ka zor hai.. Tute ga nahi’ ... haha J
